That’s the name he had on him when he and his sister were left on the steps of the Humane Society. Michael adopted him. I’m afraid of dogs, but I love Pretty. He’s the only dog who has been loving and kind to me. Not all pitbulls are violent, mean,and dangerous. Just look at him all dressed up for Halloween. He’s truly as adorable as he looks.
October 25, 2014
October 21, 2014
A week after my father died
suddenly I understood
his fondness for me was safe—nothing
could touch it. In those last months,
his face would sometimes brighten when I would
enter the room, and his wife said
that once, when he was half asleep,
he smiled when she said my name. He respected
my spunk—when they tied me to the chair, that time,
they were tying up someone he respected, and when
he did not speak, for weeks, I was one of the
beings to whom he was not speaking,
someone with a place in his life. The last
week he even said it, once,
by mistake. I walked into his room, and said “How
are you,” and he said, “I love you
too.” From then on, I had
that word to lose. Right up to the last
moment, I could make some mistake, offend him, and with
one of his old mouths of disgust he could re-
skew my life. I did not think of it,
I was helping to take care of him,
wiping his face and watching him.
But then, a while after he died,
I suddenly thought, with amazement, he will always
love me now, and I laughed—he was dead, dead!
October 8, 2014
“The Snow Man”
One must have a mind of winter
To regard the frost and the boughs
Of the pine-trees crusted with snow;
And have been cold a long time
To behold the junipers shagged with ice,
The spruces rough in the distant glitter
Of the January sun; and not to think
Of any misery in the sound of the wind,
In the sound of a few leaves,
Which is the sound of the land
Full of the same wind
That is blowing in the same bare place
For the listener, who listens in the snow,
And, nothing himself, beholds
Nothing that is not there and the nothing that is.
October 2, 2014
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NYPL has a list in their newsletter, so I decided to do a list too.
Into the Wild Jon Krakuer It breaks my heart because my son is the same age as the boy in the book.
On Thin Ice Jon Krakuer I can’t get over the suffering people are willing to go through to climb Mt. Everest.
Olive Kittredge Elizabeth Strout Olive seems real to me, not a character in a book.
Remains of the Day Kazuo Ishiguro Before I read it, I would have never thought I had something in common with an English butler.
Speaker for the Dead Orson Scott Card. I’m in love with Andrew Wiggins.
The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes Sir Arthur Conan Doyle He covers so many topics in his stories. I’m still shocked Holmes shot morphine and cocaine.
Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde Robert Louis Stevenson I’ve got a crush on Mr. Utterson. The book has a timeless quality; he could write the book today, and it would become a classic.
The Girl in the Tangerine Scarf Mohja Kauf I cry at the end every time I read it.
Judy’s Journey Lois Lenski I like Judy’s spunk and energy. I’ve read it many times since elementary school.
Sula Toni Morrison The book contains fascinating characters I want to know more about, and understand, so I read the book over and over.
What ten books stay with you?
September 26, 2014
I Can Only Be Me. This Is Me: I am a fifty-two old woman who has discovered she likes Sci-Fi , she loves her kinky hair, and eccentricity. She knows everybody reading this post is so much more than people say we are.
September 21, 2014
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Most of the time, I try not to hurt people. For the most part I keep to myself. So why do “they” say negative things about me?
I pasted and copied this list from the “Thought Catalog.”
1. People have an incredible propensity to hold within them a beast of jealousy that, now again, they cannot control. The things that unleash this monster are what they don’t have and can’t be. They will try to devalue you by any means possible. It’s best to just take it as an indicator that you have something worth having or you are someone worth envying. Why would anyone be jealous of me? I’m poor, and drive an old car.
2. The only effect it can have on you is however much you let yourself believe it’s true. The opinions of others only change you if you let them. If you weren’t somehow made aware of them, you’d have no idea anyway. You cannot, and will never be able to control how other people think, feel or behave. Nor should you try. You can, however, decide to what extent you are going to let them change who you are. Sigh. I’m trying. For some reason what people say continues to upset me.
3. The only person something needs to matter to is you. If it is in your life, and you are the person who is choosing to experience, live or attempt it, it is not the concern of anyone else. I know it’s difficult when people are firing insults at you and it’s really hurting, but this, my friends, is just life. I think this happens to me much more than others.
4. We tend to take one thing someone says and spiral, assuming the absolute worst about ourselves. Don’t go down the rabbit hole. I’m in a rabbit hole? How do I climb out?
5. They’re criticizing themselves more than anything. I’ve found this to be tried and true. The things that irritate us most are the things we like about ourselves. So you have to realize that someone disliking you or having a negative opinion most likely has a lot more to do with them than you. Ok.
6. The idea that you will one day reach a place where you are universally liked and accepted is a delusional fantasy. You have to accept that that will never be reality. More importantly, you have not failed because people have differing opinions about you or something you do. It’s just the fact that you probably assumed otherwise. I can see this is true.
7. It will not matter eventually. Think about the things you struggled with 5 years ago, and now irrelevant they are… if you can even remember them at all. The same concept applies to the future. It’s just a poor use of your energy and will do nothing but compromise the time you have now. I see and agree.
8. Many great people and ideas were harshly criticized and unacknowledged initially. Sometimes you just have to give people some time to catch up. Most people are really put off by change or anything that disrupts the flow they are used to. It’s okay, we all need some adjustment time. That’s what I’ve heard.
9. If someone takes the time to talk about you, or express an opinion about you even when it’s not favorable, you are someone worth talking about. You’ve done something that has gotten their attention. You’re not irrelevant, you’re not worthless. You have, in your own small way, joined the ranks of those who are influential enough to elicit a response from people. Be proud of yourself. Take it as it comes. Don’t apply a connotation to it. Just let it be. I must be special, very special.
10. Nobody who really loves you will love you less if they hear and/or even agree with that opinion. Isn’t that what scares us most? That we’ll lose what we most value in life… in many cases, the love of those who matter? But the people who are worth keeping around will not be affected by other people’s harsh words. They won’t. They’ll love you regardless of flaw or criticism. TC Mark I’m tired of the whole damn thing.