The increase in medication is allowing me to get some sleep and process memories that I told myself I could never think about because they were so painful.  In the past week I have had four difficult memories to deal with.  As a result I have been exhausted, but then I forgot that processing could make a person very tired.  Blamed the medication or thought I was losing my mind.  Felt embarrassed about my not having the energy to do much and I did not want to explain to anyone what was going on with me because I did not think they would understand unless they had gone through the same kind of thing.  Well, I have decided to tell a few people about my memories and what is going on with me. I am curious to see what happens.  I think people are tired of me and my problems.

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