I have been thinking about what is appropriate to reveal of my inner self on this blog.  I hope that what I write is helpful to someone out there, but on the other hand I feel that I am selfishly unburdening myself by writing about my struggles. 

Since last night I have been struggling with an idea planted in my brain by my birth parents and their cronies that I am bad luck for other people and that I should always stay away from them.  What is really scary to me is that I truly believe those lies in the younger parts of my consciousness.

So today I am staying in the house and I feel like I have lost my mind.  I know that what I am feeling is not true, and yet I still believe it.  I am very tired of this