September 12, 2011
Apologies.
I’m sorry it take me longer than others to post and answer comments. Some days I have difficult talking to other people more than I have to. So it’s not you, it’s me, and I really mean it.
Radicalhope.
September 1, 2011
Another Excellent Article From Crunk: On Disappearing.
http://crunkfeministcollective.wordpress.com/2011/09/01/feminist-musings-on-showing-up/
People already think I am inferior to them because I am a large, black, natural haired woman, but this article really made me think of how I hide my selves from other people because they will think I am unintelligent or crazy.
July 1, 2011
Some Things You Probably Don’t Know About Me And
May Not Want To Know, But I Am Telling Anyway
1. I use hair oil for cooking. Yes it is true. I have kinky hair and it needs to be moisturized on a regular basis. Light olive works very well. It is also very good for baking cookies. I replace the margarine, butter, or shortening with light olive oil.
2. I was a Woman Marine. I am also married to an ex-Marine. I was trained to use an M-16 rifle and it helped me lose my fear of guns.
3. I am introverted in public and extroverted with close family and friends. I always tease and pick with the people I like the most and have to be careful because it leads to misunderstanding.
4. Although I have very short hair and wear little makeup, I am not a lesbian. However, I have decided to be one with people who insist. And I have met lesbians exquisitely made up with long pretty hair.
5. I am almost fifty years old. I know a lot of things, mostly learned from experience. At the same time, there is much I do not know.
6. Needed to add something. I am a large black woman, but I do not enjoy taking care of children. I can do it well when I have to. I do like certain children because of their personalities. For the most part, I can tolerate children for about thirty minutes and then I want them to go home.
March 11, 2010
Balance
I’ve had a lot of pain in my life, and as I am learning, so have a lot of people I have met along the way. Unfortunately, sometimes I feel sorry for myself when things do not go the way I thought they would. I sit around, isolate myself, but I don’t think it is good for people with dissociation to spend too much time alone, at least it does not help me.
When I spend too much time alone my I tend to be more susceptible to the distorted thinking from the past. Many of us who were abused got used to surviving on our own because we did not know how to get help when we were younger, but now we can decide who we will have in our lives. This is not easy because people can be unpredictable and sometimes they do things to hurt us. We need to get used to being around other people even though we may be understandably sensitive.
That is why I write this blog. I want other people to know that they are not the only ones who have suffered and they are not alone. I definitely have some of the same issues that they have. And I’m going to admit I feel better after I share them with you.
